What to be cherish

I just dont feel want to leave

I really dont like anybody demanding me to do anything

Say no is really a hard matters for me

I dont feel want to go back

I want to stay here

Do not want to face the reality of jobs, peoples around

Ohhhhjj

There are many reason i would like to stay.

I just dont feel like want to back

Oh dear oh dear oh dear

How come it is happen this way

I really dont like going back

I dont like anyone anybody that would want to control my life!

I am the one controling my life but not you guys okayyyy....

Urghhhhhhh

Emo

好烦

好烦

好烦

我不想面对

回家后的

人事物

超烦

Emo emo emoooooio

My little diary

I am so glad i like to record my memories in this blog

Sometime i really like to read previous post

Just did this just now

On my post related to my study life

Oh dear....

Starting missing that little small room

A lazy girl never leave her bed with her ipad

Btw

It is weird that

Everytime i recall something, i can sense the smell of that time.

Might be a freak in smelling????

Lollll

I dont know how to describe that smell of my study life.

Recall back 

it was not fun, it was boring, it was tiring, it was lonely. 

I almost forgot everything if i dont record it down.

However i still miss my study life though it was really bored, stressed, lazy, tired......

It is just part of my life, which i would call it. 

 A total freedom year for in a very good environment spending enormous gdp.

A kinda long silly name.

Hmmm

Frankly speaking

Being alone is freedom, but lonely.

nothing in uk is so special that attracts me to stay.

But i would said, here is safer, cleaner, nicer, colder than malaysia.

Maybe i do not feel special due to

I am not that outgoing person for outdoor activity, i do not have much friend to social. Thus i didnt explore everything, which i feel bad that i didnt grab my chance to explore.

But.... I was really enjoying my life being alone.

So sad to think of about back to malaysia. The only thing to be happy is about my lovely room. I am going back to decorate it as my dream room!

Btw.

My recent updates

Am stay birmingham with pek these few week

Feel so happy spending time with her

I feel that i turn healthy staying with her

Gotta back to sheffield to keep my things

Maybe send back to malaysia

And arranging trip for my parent, aunt, pek n my love for celebrating my graduation... 

Though it is not the truth, but i deem it 

Ahhh... The truth is, They just came here to have fun but not really for my graduation.

Whatever.....

Is kinda late now

I just dont know why i not easily get sleep at night....

Fatty love to eat

Y pek y?

Hehehehe

Play around with pek hair... It is more easy then i thought.

Though i am so ugly in the photo, but i am really enjoying my holiday!!!!

Woohoooooo

Good night, the future me..

I hope you will be happy after read this blog.

我的爱人

靠近要和你见面了

才发现

我们多久没见了

你有发现吗

我只爱和你大吵大闹

可是

大吵大闹之余

爱的初衷

依然存在

我虽然

不像一般的女朋友

如此的贴心

小鸟依人

当然

你也异于常人的木头

但是呢

普通得再不能普通的两个人

似乎

必须在一起

如此远的距离

却如此稳定

多亏了

你 和 我

我们的努力

我们之间的信任

只有我们懂得。

人家常说

喜欢和爱人相处时眼中的那个他

但是

我更爱和你相处时

那个可以做自己

的我

谢谢你

一直

对我不离不弃的爱人

啊和。

After my last chapter

After my education last chapter.

Though it is not ended perfectly but yet i am so happy everything is over.

Right now what i have to do is just enjoying rest of my holiday before work.

I feel so happy that i have a 3 months break to fully enjoy

Just a simple summarized what i did after  thesis.

I came to birmingham visit pekkee and share a small room together. For nearly 2 weeks.

Other than living together, including cook, eat, watch drama, do laundry

We did visit london

For your information it is tower bridge

London eye

And big ben

It is our first time travelling together. Feel so thankfull that the first place we visit is such a wonderful place.

Of course we did lots of crazy stuff tgt. Like finishing the ice cream and chips in  very short time. Chit chat till midnight, shoping ... What girls should do

Feeling so happy acompany by her during my holiday before work.

Thanks my dear!

Some pictures to be uploaded

We like to take ootd picture. Though there is nothing special to hashtag or show off. Lollll

My neck pillow and eye mask is a must for every trip

We are going to meet harry porter. Btw, she always get a good angle of me but i cant get hers....

Kilo sales we been. I am still regreting buying second hand clothes, though they label it as vintage sales

Crazy selfie is a must

Not to forget desserts too...,

Though photo cant show our beauty, but it certainly shows how happy are us being together!

I will love u my dear. 

My smartest preetty family and friend. Low pek pek

#Ootd#primark#fullyprimarkotherthannikeshoe#nike#fossilwatch#espiritglass#birmingham#chinatown#uk#study#msc#finace#acca#smart#beautiful#red#black

I had try my best learning hashtag. Hahabaha

Non to blame but myself

What a terrible work i had did. 

My last chapter end with huge dissapointment.

I know, it is all my fault. Just my fault.

Non to blame, but myself. Terribly 

Feel emo so emo

青春啊

我们总捉不住 

青春的尾巴

若有时光机

什么会因此改变呢

世界那么大

看着天空，

突然觉得自己无比的渺小

要不要

飞高一些

看看世界有多大。

Move again!

Move again n again

这一站，我过了。

我相信

我一直知道自己要的是什么

我一直知道下一步要做什么

比如 中学升学院

我读的科目

我中三就选好了

读硕士

也大约半年前就决定了

现在

论文写完了

若 毕业

我就再也不是学生了

没有任何的理由

是学生了

想着想着

值得开心吗？

第二天

把论文写完的我

不晓得过着那一个国度的 jetlag

思考着

当然

我的下一步

是工作

当然

也知道在哪儿工作

也幻想了

无数次

但是

这次

我还真没有

心理准备

我再也不是学生

我再也不能乱花费

我用的即将是自己的血汗钱

我长大了吗？

读硕士

原因之一

是要长大

但是

我依然没改变

一些事实

问题

我还不想面对

现在想着

如果明天

还要上课

那就好了

Ps: 患上了论文病。头脑，你可以休息了。你的论文，完成两天了！

4 days left

A reminder for myself

As usual

my dissertation is slow like a snail

of course is due to my laziness

slack all the time

wasted all the precious time....


A reminder for myself
my deadline is on 1st of September.

And of course I have to bind at 29th
which is 5 days later

There is no time for slack

turn your life style

do whatever you should do

and

after this you will be fly so high~~


it 12 right now....
and its time to start!!

Stress

so stress

So stress

So stress

So so stress

切记

人 因经历而长大

而今天，我真正上了宝贵的一课

我总觉得
自己是特别幸运的

在我迷失的时候
虽然说不上是什么的迷失
我总得到辅助

谢谢那个留言
浅白的字句
但是
让我领悟自己是多么的不知足

有一些事
我真的听过
但没有体会过
我以为我懂
但是我不懂
我没有担忧过
我没有真正了解过

“你不是我，你怎么懂我的感受”
这句，说明了
没人能了解
当事人有多苦
有多痛

我错了

自己幸福的过着日子

却嫌这个
嫌那个

我真的太懒惰

懒得无可救药

而

我知道我不能再懒惰

我常说我要珍惜
我何曾真的珍惜过

而这次
我不想在迷失

我来到这儿的初衷

我不会再逃避
我会选择
面对

我太感激你了

San's UK Lifestyle

I had used to my lifestyle in UK.

I had plenty of time doing things I love over here

I had manage my time on my own

Oh Yes!

just love the feeling

This is my time schedule if there are nothing to do

I will usually wake up at 1pm
after brush my teeth I will call my parents
after that I will prepare my breakfast... usually bread with eggs, milo with cereal or spaghetti with minced meat...
after that I will watch Hong Kong Drama, Kang Xi Lai Le, or Ba Ba Qu Na er
I am sure I will fall asleep between that
I will not set any alarm for my nap and usually I waked at 10pm
Then I will prepare my dinner
usually left over of my breakfast
Then I will watch some videos from youtube
and reluctantly... less likely

I will work on my thesis till 3 to 4am
with slow progress
facebook, instagram, listening music in between

after that I will still stalking any social apps through handphone
until I feel tired

Then sleep till the next day

hmmm

what a relaxing day

This will be the best without any dissertation

I know it is an unhealthy lifestyle
Just let me go through this kind of life until end of my study

I just loving it.....

Thing might just go different in Penang

Oh Gosh
I just have to cherish every moment in my life

Slow Progress of my Last Chapter

I had tried to do "Communication in Construction" for my dissertation.

I would not said it is hard. It is actually easy to understand and sort of common sense topic...

But self discipline is the main things.

and I dont have it

Had just did some work just now. ya... just now.... finally.....

Even reading and copy paste required me so much time.

I had just only done definition of communication copy and paste part.... will be evaluating, critical analysing, compare and contrast... whatever whatever job task that will made my brain blast on tomorrow.

Oh Gosh... Feeling so bad......

Why am I so lazy

Why am I so slow

even my friend had finished Literature Review Part

whether I can complete on time seems is mission impossible right now

god god god

Rescue me......

Updates of mid of summer

Weather is always a topic in england.

And this is their summer.

I think it had been warm ... Ya...maybe... 1 month?😒

Hopefully turn warm like fews day later.

I had apply for student crew and senior resident jobs for this summer☺️

To get extra pay and also free acomodation plus some special experience.

So its about helping juniors on their stuff.

I am so glad that victoria hall junior are really polite and friendly.😉

I am so happy assigned to any job related to school. It is fun. 

But i was only too tired for peak district job.😤

I dont care whether how i looks in the photo. It is a proof that i walked 5 hours non stop.😬

Besides... I was enjoying summer😎.... 

And i left all my thesis behind......

Ooppss it had been 3 weeks.😨😨😨

I might spending time mostly on my bed and ipads for 3 weeks.😫

Its time to really wake up and work hard. I should seriously start work!

Slap my self! 😱😡

I should firstly clean and tidy up my room

Second seriously work on thesis 📖and reducing time in entertainment🔇

Third work out and keep fit💪

Fourth sleep on time 😴

Go on go on.

Made my final chapter perfectly end!😘

I know

I am just incredibility annoying. 

Haiz

I am just too happy today

Oh dear oh dear

Result out and superb satisfied!

Lovely.

Oh yesssssss!

Tired

My final chapter Progressing.... 20 % ... 80% left

I just miss u guys so much.

Recent updates - msc final chapter

Just wanted to thank my family

Supporting me all way long to uk

Though there are difficulties during the study period

I was lazy, i was lonely, i was stress, i was struggeling 

I had go through.

With a satisfied result on overall assignment in 2nd semester.

Now.

This is my last chapter of my studies

Dissertation.

It is a tough period again maybe.

But finally.

This is the last. Final. Chapter of my study life

Hopefully.

Thanks dad n mum

I am really happy here

Am so glad i study msc

Am so happy spent a year right here

Ps: finally able earn some money by myself 

Am quite forgetting about converting pound to ringgits....

The only picture with my flatmates.

Bye guys. Is really fun study together this semester.

心底话

说出心底话，

太难。

好希望

有一天

不顾一切的

把心底话说出

我

我不敢踏出第一步

我不敢面对生活的现实

我自以为骄傲的，活在自己的世界

我逃避，再逃避，再再逃避。

躲在玻璃瓶里，怎么都不肯出来。

我不晓得，那是不是我要的生活。

但是，我好纳闷。好纳闷。说不出口的纳闷。

Exam coming

Omg exam coming

13 and 23 of may! Hopefully last exam of my life!!!!

After that tarcian coming. Might be busy around coz just gt the senior resident role.

But on no! Proposal is going to submit real soon after that!

Oh dear. Holiday ends!!!!

物质上的欲望

那 永远追不完

不晓得我什么时候开始

对物质上的要求越来越多

在此发一文

提醒自己

积极向上

包次正确的价值观。

此外

如此的有味道

如此的身材

怎么达到

几时才能

把贪吃的欲望

去掉

Recent updates

Its like asignment marathon that never stop for this month

I have to submit 2 assignments more on 

7 and 10th of april

And its Easter holiday after that. Woohoo

So, i was busy for my assignment for this whole month (i mean lil part of them)

And yes

The 1st assignment result for project administration is out, and i am just nearly pass. Oh gosh! Oh dear! And the result start with the number 4....

I had repeated this to everyone again and again.

Its quite a shocking news, but i am so glad that, i am pass!

I get teased by my friends,

They told: u said the assignment was easy for this semester? 

I really thought it was easier but i am totally wrong 

Though, i knew that i didnt do well on the first assignment. I mean i do not really understand what gary wanted, same do rest of the class.

Everyone was so shock.

Assignment 2 is even crazier!

We just learnt what adjudication is about in 6 slides

And we have to produce proposal regarding to dispute between parties, which need to be support by case law

Oh please

We are not lawyer and I want to pass this assignment!!! 

Wishfully get a better idea from gary on monday

Its 2.35 now

I am actually waked from a short sleep from 9pm to 12am

Got to back for sleep.

Photo updates

Tang yuan

Getting fat. Tearsss.

Spring 

Nandos treat by stephanie! Thanks love

Tamper foods are greatttt

I am good here! And used to everything. Its turning better i can said. 

Time flew so fast. Its been nearly a year living in sheffield.

It will be the best if there are no assignment and exam.

Adjudication...

What letter...

What agenda...

What disruption...

What delay...

What case law.....

I am going crazy

Bye........